As I reflect tonight, I think about all the things that are going on in our lives right now. I think about how I need God to shed light on certain things. For example, sometimes I feel inadequate as a PA and today was one of those days. I forget how God blessed me with the knowledge and ability to do what I do everyday. I've had a lot of patients lately question my diagnosis, treatment and age. I need to remember that with God in my life, I should be happy and not be so concerned about what other people may say or do but it is so much easier said than done.
I also think about how we (my husband and I) are struggling with his father, more specifically his father's girlfriend. She is so hurtful, I believe intentionally, and his dad goes along with it. It is so obvious how God's light is not shining in their hearts. I have to remember that God shining his light in my life makes the difference and that there is no darkness, however, sometimes it is so hard to push away their darkness and let his light shine.
I'm not sure this is coming out how I want it to but you know how it is sometimes when you just need to speak/type. Thank you to all of you for your support and love in Christ.
Liz, I'm sorry to hear about your struggles with your father-in-law's gf/work. It must be hard to be questioned when you have worked so hard to become good at what you do. It makes me think about how God is so good at what he does. :) ...healing, strengthening, drawing us to him. Making us weak so that we have to lean on him and know his strength will carry us. So often I question God and wonder why he doesn't give me a different "prescription" for my troubles. How can I question the great Physician? He will give just what is needed in the right timing. He sees you as you are, and through Christ, you are perfect in his sight. Despite what others may say or think, you are worthy in the sight of God, and this is all that matters. He will give you the strength and dignity you need through Jesus. Sending a hug your way!
ReplyDeletePraying for you as you interact with Ed's dad's gf. Just keep shining that light and love that none of us deserve. He will be with you. God can pour love into hearts of stone. He did in mine. Love you, Liz! Sending a hug...
I echo Paula's already well-said words. Such a good analogy of how we question our GOD who knows the best of and for us, yet how much more shouldn't we expect misunderstanding and unappreciative behavior from mere humans? Sad, but true. :( But doing your best in good faith and with love can never make you go wrong! God will see you through and protect your character! Love and hugs!
ReplyDeleteThanks girls, I appreciate the support!
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